dreaming...for now

right now im listening to some music sorting out my clothes..goin to va today to see my fam (mainly to wash at my mamas) lol but really i havent seen my nephews goin on two weeks and thats not normal, i feel so bad so i will def have to come with candy or something in hand..anyways just sitting here on the laptop listening to some music and its like everything i "get in my zone :)" and put the music on its like my thoughts and ambitions are already like sky high but at this point in the game i really can imagine and realistically see things ive always wanted come to past and people may think im crazy but *sigh* i really believe if u can imagine something realistically now that you can do it and ive seen it happen...im not talking like close your eyese and just think about it but actually connect and be passionate about it, pray about it....im telling u, lol god is real and as i look arounf the world and see all these things happening and just sit back like we are exempt and were not...times are getting critical so thats why im like its crunchtime i gotta go hard or go home, if its something that i wanna do im gonna do it, im not afraid anymore of what people says about me, about what i do, wear, post on the internet, like im a free, no kids, no man (bittersweet), but im good (smile)...i just feel i still could give it a little more time and focus and i think thats what im gonna work on..i applied to a few things, im keeping it secret to keep from disappointment but i have a feeling good things could be brewing for me........o_O...btw i blog whatevers on my mind and right now im thinking about myself lol.......................